Okay, so now I may just start hating the snow..

Like a proper New Englander! Tomorrow marks the beginning of my 7 (unpaid) days off, 6 days I took off to spend with my Bff (with an extra day at the end for recovery, haha). But, as of 10pm tonight, both flights she had to get here were canceled because of the stupid snowstorm! It doesn't help that she's coming from Ohio and was connecting in DC.. and last I heard, she had been on hold for a very long time with the airline, trying to reschedule her flight. Not a good way to start a trip!

I think I'll go punch the snow in the face when it gets here.

Today I escaped my life..

For about 6 hours.. I watched The OC, oh yes, sexy people doing sexy, scandalous things, it was a must see back in the day and I forgot how much I love it..until today when, on a whim, I put on one of the dvds. I was just going to watch one episode..then I would go do the things I needed to do today.. then I watched another..and another. And then, I had to take the dog for a walk and Dh came home and then he said he had some stuff to do so I could watch whatever..so I put on another dvd and watched many more.. it was glorious. And it transported me back to a time when life was easy and fun.. and I plan to make it that again, somehow.

LMAO at this fertility blog

BBT -Barren but terrific!!

http://999reasonstolaughatinfertility.blogspot.com/

I should really learn to go to bed when I'm tired..

The over-analyzing phantom symptoms fun has started again even though I could have only o'ed last night (but there is a very slight possibility that I could have o'ed about 12 days ago), let's see what google has to say..

1. Very emotional (was crying pretty much non-stop watching Pet Psychic on Animal Planet..for two hours.): probably some sort of mental disorder..

2. Pinching feeling in my uterus last night: probably something I imagined because I read on the Gp board the day before that a girl had that as a pg symptom and I thought "What a weird thing to feel..." and then the next night, I swear to you, it felt like someone was inside my body and pinching me down where I assume my uterus (or bladder..) is! And I couldn't find anything on google.. so I'm thinking this could also be some sort of mental disorder.

3. Lots and lots of creamy cm: I can't remember if this normally happens before Af or not.

4. Random cramps: I get these all the time, especially during the last half of my cycle but I always hold out hope that they mean something.

5. Headaches every night for the past 5 days: probably leftover symptom of cold I had last week

And I'll stop now.. I'm sure I'll have more things to add up until Af shows just like she always does, yippee..

Happy 2010!

So, this will be the obligatory New Year, new me blog post. 2009 was a mediocre year, nothing too exciting and nothing too bad happened.
At the beginning of 2010, Dh and I will have lived in Mass. for a year and we just renewed our lease so unless something dramatic happens, we won't be moving and that feels nice.
Our house in Florida is under a short sale contract so hopefully, if the bank cooperates, we'll be out from under that soon which will make me feel a lot better. I love the house but it's just felt like a dark cloud hanging over us for the past year. The couple who is trying to buy it is our age so I hope they get it and fill it with children like we had hoped to do.
My grandpa undergoes 9 more weeks of chemo in a couple of weeks without his feeding tube since it fell out a few days ago and he refused to have it put back in. So, I'm hoping he can make it through without becoming too weak and then he and my grandmother can more forward. (They've even talked about traveling again..)

This coming year, I plan to spend more time outside experiencing life instead of inside worrying about keeping my house spotless.

That's it. Now, I'm off to experience life instead of sitting in front of the computer..

It sucks to be dumped, especially when it's by your own body..

So, needless to say, I'm in a funk again after Af showed this week..and I have an overwhelming feeling that my body has broken my heart. The good news is I o'ed when I thought I did but then Dh and I had pretty good timing (I don't think we used the pre-seed though..stupid us..) and..nothing. I was slowly starting to get my hopes up too. I'm trying really hard to be happy that my body functioned correctly but in true "me" fashion, I can't, I want more. And I want to get myself and Dh to a specialist but I keep procrastinating and thinking maybe it's not meant for us to have children or maybe next month will be our month. But it probably won't be, just like every other month.. ugh.

People are so not helpful..

Dh and I have lived here for almost a year now.. and just last week we received a memo from our apartment complex asking for info on our dog for their records, not a big deal.. except I notice that on it is a "proof of town license" requirement. What the what??

Apparently, this is common practice up here, but in Florida, all we needed was a rabies certificate. I think this whole 'town license' business is just a way to get money, but whatever.. my point is, why didn't anyone tell us about this requirement?! Our apartment complex office knew we were moving from Florida, all of our references were in Florida so obviously that's where we've been living for years and years and since they seem to need proof of this town license, you'd think they would have told us to get one when we moved here. In January.

Then, there is the veterinary hospital, we went there in May for Brady's yearly check-up, they also knew we had just moved from Florida and that I was completely clueless about things up here (ticks and coyotes, oh my!) yet they never mentioned a town license..I just feel completely failed right now, is there anything else I should know before I accidentally walk out of my house on Zombie Day and am eaten because no one told me about Zombie Day?