Infertility causes lots of emotions, everyone knows this. But, the predominant emotion it has caused me to have has been anger.
When I didn't know why I wasn't getting pregnant for the first 2 years, I became angry at my body for not working the way it's supposed to. When we realized that we needed to see a fertility specialist, I was angry that we had to put so much effort into becoming parents. When we found out that we wouldn't be able to conceive naturally, I was angry at my body, my husband's body, God, fate, everyone in the world who accidentally became pregnant, and I could go on.
And frankly, I'd like to say that I've learned how to overcome this anger.
But, I haven't. Whenever I think about how far we've come and how far we have to go before we become parents, I'm still angry.
And I've learned to cope with/ignore my anger.. but I haven't been able to rid myself of it and I don't think I ever will.
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