Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Snow day!

We had 24 inches of snow here today, it's crazy and freezing but at least Dh and I got the day off of work! We did a whole lot of nothing with a little snow shoveling in between.

And lately, I've been able to not think about TTC too much, partially on purpose and partially not. I think it's mainly because I know there's really nothing to do until our follow-up with the urologist in February. I've thought about starting to learn more things about adoption but besides looking into a few agencies and lurking on a couple of message boards, I haven't. I'm just not ready to give up the thought of having a biological child. If/When that time comes, I know I'll have to "grieve the loss" but I don't see why I should put myself through that until it's certain.
I also was seriously considering seeing a therapist a couple of weeks ago because from right before to a few days after our last appointment, I couldn't talk to anyone about anything without almost crying (at one point, I basically started crying at work.. because my manager was being nice and telling me everything will work out). Then I was in a funk for several days and didn't care to do anything. I thought maybe I was pms-ing around the same time which would explain a lot of it but AF has yet to show and I'm out of the funk so that wasn't it. I still haven't totally squashed the therapist idea, I think our insurance would cover a lot of it and it probably would be a good idea, especially if we find out we're totally screwed.

Until then, shopping has been my personal therapy and I'm in need of a new handbag (especially since it's been almost a year since I bought my last one, it wasn't cheap so I promised DH that would be it for a while..and it has been!) I like this one and it's on clearance AND easy pay..

Okay, never mind, the stupid website won't let me borrow the picture.. here's the link if anyone