Saturday, November 14, 2009

It's only a matter of time versus it will never happen..ever.

I'm totally on the fence about ttc business this month.. sometimes I feel like I'm going to magically end up pregnant and I'll marvel at the days when I felt like I was never going to be a mom, how silly of me! But then my moods change and I feel like it's never going to happen unless I get mine and Dh's asses to a doctor. And I get all angry and my co-worker who knows about all this will say "You should just will happen.." and I (half)jokingly scream "I CAN'T RELAX!!!" And I can't..maybe if my body functioned correctly, it wouldn't be as bad because at least then it would be an issue of not being pregnant, not an issue of my body being whack. I stopped charting though, I was just hating myself every single morning when I had to lay still with a stupid thermometer hanging out of my mouth. My temps never really told me anything anyway and the only cycle that I think I actually ovulated was the one where I totally failed at temping. So, temping unless I feel like it.


  1. I'm glad to hear your grandfather is doing well!

    Sorry your co-worker said The Number One Thing You Don't Tell Someone TTTC. I really hope things turn around for you soon in that department :-)

  2. I think not charting worked for me!! I went completely off CM and that month it worked. Keep your head up.

  3. Keep your head up. I say don't chart go completely off CM. That is what I ended up doing and it worked. I am always around if you need to vent!

  4. **hugs**
    I hate it when people say the whole "relax and it will happen". Really? Because I don't think it works that way. My mom was worlds worst at this, it made me regret ever telling her about ttc. I really hope that not charting will give your mind a break and that you will end up with a bfp. I hate that you feel so defeated sometimes, just know that I am routing for you!
    I'm glad your Grandfather came through the surgery well. I will keep him in my prayers.