Infertiles are some of the luckiest people I know.

Yes, infertility is awful and has made me a bitter, crazy mess. But, it is my biggest problem and for that, I am thankful.

I don't worry about having food to eat.
I don't worry about having somewhere to sleep.
I have a job, a loving family, a caring husband, and an adorable dog.

And that is the case with all the people that I know who are dealing with infertility. We are so fortunate that we have the resources to deal with it. No matter how awful the tests are, the medications, the injections, it could be worse and we could be dealing with bigger problems.

Today, I remember this. Tomorrow, I'll be back to my bitter, crazy self. :)

I JUST WANT TO BE PREGNANT ALREADY!!!!

That is all!

What a fool I am

About half an hour ago I took a pregnancy test for the first time in probably a year. I've been feeling nauseous at night for the past two days and today, I started feeling nauseous right before I left for work and it lasted all day. Also, I googled "implantation cramping" and the description matched exactly what I felt last week. So, on the way home I stopped and bought a test.

BFN.

Why did I think it was possible for it to be anything else?!?

And, why am I so nauseous?!?